its annoys me how my thoughts appear so seemingly impossible to control and how i feel so inexplicably connected to you and how i seem to somehow sense apparent or impending something unpleasant thats about to happen. its that same wrenching feeling in the pits of my stomach, the tightening of my lungs and the fear that explodes inside it. shallow breathing and my heartbeat quickens. the phone rings but theres no answer on the other end. the waiting does nothing but accentuate the turmoil.

finally assuaged my craving for pig organs soup last night. dragged alo and lj down to geylang last night for a decidedly satisfying meal. somehow i still find it a tad hilarious how the three of us always manage to get so lost each time we are together. guess thats what happens when one is not familiar with the roads and the other two have no directional sense what so ever. despite all the wrong turns the company of my two dear friends and how we can talk about anything and everything under the sun never fails to lift my spirits somewhat.